Lost Ones

I am having trouble with humanity these days. Lately, my life has been a comedy of errors, disappointments and pure foolishness. The sheer gall and audacity that some folks have is beyond my comprehension. I like to think that I am a strong and understanding person, but that strength is failing me. I am no longer sympathetically aware, tolerant or forgiving. This scares me. I don't want to be that person. "I know I"m guilty of it too, but not like them."

I heard a song that resonates with how I'm feeling right now: Sanctus Real - Pray

I bow my head to pray, I don't know what to say 
I'm not sure how to fix the things I'm dealing with
I'm in a desperate place, I need to share the weight
But I just don't know how, to let it all pour out 

Though I'm silent, my heart is crying‘
Cause I was made to come to You
So I prayGod I need You more than words can say
Right here in this moment 
You know my heart, You know my need
You know every part of me
So even if it's just to speak Your name
I'm gonna pray 

I failed to find the time, but You've been calling out
I let the days go by as if I could live without
But it's gotta be here now, I won't be pulled away
Cause it's just You and I, so let the world around us fade 
As I pray
God I need You more than words can say

Right here in this moment
You know my heart, You know my need
You know every part of me
So even if it's just to speak Your name

I'm gonna pray
I'm gonna pray 
Father, I'm in a desperate place
Father, I know You can bear the weight
Father, Take me in Your arms as I speak Your name

I lift my hands and prayI lift my hands and pray 
You know my heart, You know my needAnd every single part of me
So even if it's just to speak Your name
I'm gonna pray

I'm gonna pray You know my heart, You know my need
You know every part of me
More than words, You want my life
Take it as an offering

I don't want to be one of the lost ones. I want to be present, hopeful and believe that life means so much more than this.

-Run